As I sat up in the bed I was lying on. I looked directly through his eyes and said to myself, ' Who is this? Could it be...no...that he was sent to comfort and help me?' His eyes was in a shade of brown and was filled with hapiness and care. He smiled at me and said, 'Do you need help?' I nodded and asked, 'Are you...?' but I failed to continue what I was saying. I turned my sight to the window that was on the left side of the cold room. I stood up and walked towards it. I stared outside with a blank stare and said to myself, ...this will never end...how hard I try... I felt tears starting to flow from my eyes. The warmth of my tears made me feel better from the cold atmosphere of the room. I closed my eyes and thought of the wonderful things I have done before I felt cold. I cried but I was smiling... I was recalling every memory I have from the past. Someone laid it's hand on my shoulder...I looked at my back and saw him smiling... his eyes told me that he, also, is in the same situation I have now...Behind his happiness, there lived a sudden sadness as mine.
I sat with him in dinner and we talked about each other. While we were talking and getting to know each other, I felt my heart falling for him. I can't look at his eyes directly now, every time I hear him saying something, I can feel my heart melt. After a few minutes, he asked me what was wrong. As I heard him say those words I frowned and didn't immediately answered. I looked down and took a deep breath. And answered, 'I was left...Alone with a cold heart and mind...I was thrown away like trash!' I tried not to cry, but the words hurt even more whenever I talked about them. He approached me when I was crying hard and laid his arms around my shoulders and led me in the room. He said, 'I'm really sorry... I was just wondering if both of us are the same...' As I heard these words it started to repeat in my head...He too?the same as my heart is feeling? I dried my tears and said, 'The same...?' He nodded and continued, '...I felt alone and lonely at the same time...My head was spinning...Until now...My heart is still looking for answers why...I just can't-' I threw my arms around him and hugged him tight I rested my head on his shoulders and I was crying... 'It's ok...I can exactly understand what you mean...'
The whole time I was with him, I could feel the presence of hope all around me. The case of both of us might be the reason why destiny lead us to each other. The things that was happening whenever I'm with him would always be a significant memories to keep in my heart. My life...it's starting to cahnge second by second I'm with him. The joy, laughter and trust we share within the both of us would never easily break down in our hearts...We will never forget any of these... A shining light guided us to escape from the cell of our sadness and loneliness from the world we came from and from the problems that made us to be lonely and outcasted...We were FREE... My life never felt so good!
Time passed by and the longer I stayed away from the dark corner of my world, there lives hope...Right beside me...Him...He helped me to see what my mission is in this world...Thank you...I lived a normal and happy life with him by my side, My life never felt so good! My life never felt so free! My life never felt so light and bright! I thank him for everything he showed me that made my life like this!
Time passed...I was walking...I saw figures...I looked closely... It's them...the ones who abandoned me once! why are they here? I looked more closely and walked towards them... They rushed towards me and enclosed me with their arms and tears saying...' We were so worried...We are so glad to see you again...We're sorry we didn't cared much!' As they hugged me, tears began to fall from my eyes and hope enlightened the dark corner of my world and changed it to a bright and fruitful future for me... But I thought you have abandoned me? Why are you here then?...' We didn't abandoned you...We didn't had time...We're really sorry' I can feel their tears pouring down on me and their worries down my shoulders... I can't believe it! Thank you!
I cried...I cried...I cried...I cried...With joy...With joy...With joy...WITH JOY!!
'As long as YOU stand by me,and I stand by YOU...We will always be together!'
-A.L.d.M
Entry @ 4:32 AM;
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
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