All my life I've been happy for everything that everyone whose around me gives me. I have a loving, understanding, trusted, caring family and friends. Everytime I'm with them, I can feel the importance of me being there with them. My presence for them is the same as my need to be with them forever. Every problem I face and meet, they're always in my heart and mind to support me...
As I grew farther from them, I went to school... Make new friends, I felt sadness and misery shivering anf filling inside my heart. I tried to figure out what's happening to me. Deep inside my troubled and confused feelings...I could feel myself incomplete. 'Incomplete am I...I still have myself to try...To figure out what's wrong with me...' These words repeated inside my head. everything seems awkward everytime I'm with them. My family doesn't recognize me anymore... My friends doesn't know me anymore... What's wrong with me? What happened to them? My feelings were crashing down, I was hurt... It's was a very horrible feeling, the first time I felt it... is worse! I faced the mirror infront of me and looked at my face that looks awkward and silent. Infront of me, is the face that I can't believe I have... The face of sadness. Behold my life that came crashing down. As I looked infront of me, my face I see, I saw a tear that fell from my eye, it flowed down to my cheeks, I heard it's little splash that means it met the surface... I can feel more tears flowing continuously down my face and I remebered eveything that made me happy...but know made me really blue. I looked up, '...My family... Friends... What have I done? Am I not their, anymore?' I cried...I tried... To forget what was happening. I looked outside, the rain was pouring, my eyes were filled with tears that I could feel falling down my eyes... I cried...and cried...
>>TO BE CONTINUED...
Entry @ 6:19 PM;
Thursday, May 18, 2006
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